…how do you strike back? I’m struggling to find an answer to my own question. Recently, with the gastric bypass I’ve gotten, I’ve been struggling in real life. My anti-depressants have been hard on my stomach so I went off them for a while. My doctor prescribed new ones but they aren’t doing a damn thing.
So I’ve basically spent most of my energy just convincing myself to get out of bed in the morning.
But enough about that. I actually wanted to update you guys on something important.
In one of my little meltdowns, I made a realization. Well, I made a few, but they’re not pertinent to this blog. The one realization that is crucial to this blog, and my writing, is that I need to take risks if I want to get moving. Not like, huge financial risks or anything (I don’t even have a part-time job right now), but more like… personal risks. So I decided I’m going to write a short novel for self-publish.
Right now, I’m considering doing this through Lulu.com because they come the most highly recommended. I’m considering hiring a freelance editor instead of using one of their package deals, since that kind of money just isn’t available to me right now. I can make my own cover art with stock art and my own artistic talent with Photoshop.
I have an idea for the novel, but I’ll introduce it when it’s a little more fleshed out. Right now I have part of the first channel written out, but I should go work on it more…
It’s just hard to motivate myself to write at the moment. I know that once I get started, I’ll probably get on a roll and be able to belt out the rest of the chapter if not more, but I’m also hung up on the possibility that I might ruin what I’ve already gotten started…
Depression sucks, y’know?