Returning From Hiatus

Wow, it’s been a while since I’ve last written on this blog. Almost a full year. This tends to happen to me, honestly. I get really into something and then I just suddenly lose interest and start some brand new project with the same high aspirations. Rinse and repeat. It’s something I’ve struggled with all my life.

So, to try to combat that, I’m going to just make a simple goal. I’m going to write every day. I won’t necessarily be writing a blog post every day, but I will be working on one of my two main projects at least a little every day. I just unearthed my laptop from storage and moved into a brand new apartment, and something about this new location just makes me want to really bring my life-long dream to life.

I’m going to get published one way or another.

I’m just going to use this blog to keep myself in line, and keep whoever may be reading this updated. Anyone who is reading… I’d love comments! They’d help me keep going!

Anyway, I’m going to keep this brief. I only have a little bit of time before my boyfriend returns home, and for whatever reason, I find it impossible to write when I have an audience.


Toodles ❤


When Real Life Strikes…

…how do you strike back? I’m struggling to find an answer to my own question. Recently, with the gastric bypass I’ve gotten, I’ve been struggling in real life. My anti-depressants have been hard on my stomach so I went off them for a while. My doctor prescribed new ones but they aren’t doing a damn thing.

So I’ve basically spent most of my energy just convincing myself to get out of bed in the morning.

But enough about that. I actually wanted to update you guys on something important.

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A Break Too Long Broke the Streak

Without going into too many details, I had a longer break than I intended. Normally, in any hobby I do alone, I take days off from them to focus on my boyfriend when he has his days off from work. Since he works full-time, it’s hard to really get to enjoy each other in the few hours before and after work when we’re not sleeping. Well, his normal days off are Tuesday and Saturday. He had Sunday off too.

And that one extra day has completely robbed me of any inspiration tow ork.

Isn’t that how it goes? You have a surplus of inspiration when you on’t have time to use it, and then when you’re finally alone and can work, it’s gone. I managed to push myself to work on chapter three of Europa (which isn’t finished) but I’m pretty sure I’m going to come back to it tomorrow, decide it’s garbage, and rewrite everything.

But at least I tried, right?

I told myself that if I skipped out one more day, I’d fall off the wagon for at least a week. I know myself well enough to know that’s true. I do best when I don’t take any breaks from whatever habit I’m trying to build, but at the same time, everyone needs a break. It’s a catch-22 I can’t seem to get out of. I want to get into a workout habit too, but since your body literally requires rest days, it’s really hard for me to come back from that rest day and be raring to go. I wish I understood it.

I hope I’m not alone in that feeling. If I am, maybe I’ll never fix the issue, haha.

Anyway, I’m wondering if maybe working on a different project would help with my inspiration levels? I’m not sure. I just don’t want to get started on another project and then start another project and then have like fifteen projects incomplete. I need to figure out what my best work comes out of and stick to it. At least I don’t have people hanging on every word I write, so I have time to find what works best for me.

Anyone who has found out what works best for them, please let me know. I’d love to give it a shot.

Behind a Lily in the Library

lilycoverI wrote my first short story today. It was really hard. Not only because I’ve always been a long-distance writer, but because the content of the story was a little dark. I’d love if you read it and gave me feedback. Also, this post will make a lot more sense if you read it (it’s only 3,266 words according to FocusWriter) because I decided I’m going to talk about what inspired it and such.

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First Steps

Honestly, the concept of starting a social identity for yourself can be incredibly overwhelming. I’ve started more accounts in one day than I have since I was young and joined every site I ever saw. Between my Twitter and Facebook and Wattpad accounts (psst, by the way, those are clickable, and I’d love the support!), I have more tabs open than I know what to do with. Once everything gets settled, I can get down to the fun part: writing.

I decided that, although I am really enjoying my current new project that I’d like to publish, I’m going to take a step back from it and focus more on my online writing projects. I want to try to build an identity for myself online so I have some support when I do decide to go “pro” and work on getting published. Baby steps. I can do this.

So, for now, I’m actually doing a challenge on Wattpad to get started. Since Earth Day is coming up on April 22, they have a challenge for people to write stories about Earth no longer being around, or something to that effect. I had actually touched on this in a former novel/RPG idea a few years back, so I decided to resurrect the beast and give it a facelift.

europacoverThis is Europa. It’s a story based on Earth slowly becoming less functional and humans deciding to venture out to other planets (or in this case, a moon) to try to start over. When they are attempting to build a sustainable ecosystem, the animals they brought to the new planet with them begin to take on new forms and gain abnormal powers and bond themselves to the native born Europan children. The narrative will follow a young girl named Willow, a sickly child with a Arctic Fox(?) familiar. When outside forces begin to try to destroy the colony on Europa, she and the other native-born Europan children gather with their familiars to explore what is beyond their small, man-made bubble and stop whatever is trying to threaten their existence.

This novel is a work in progress, obviously. Some of the story has to be worked out, but I tend to write more from the gut than an outline. All I know is I want to get some progress done on it, today possibly, and see how it turns out. I pocketed the idea for a while, so I wonder how much Willow and her partner have grown up in the back of my brain.

Wish me luck!